tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19928946.post115052409069171398..comments2023-04-16T09:57:06.336-04:00Comments on furthermore, flask: run - bike - runflaskhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02926786246931651655noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19928946.post-1153792038387405162006-07-24T21:47:00.000-04:002006-07-24T21:47:00.000-04:00Wonderful and informative web site.I used informat...Wonderful and informative web site.I used information from that site its great. <BR/><A HREF="http://www.1970-volkswagen-bus.info/Volkswagen9.html" REL="nofollow">»</A> <A HREF="http://www.debtmanagement2.info/Free_bookkeeping_filing_system.html" REL="nofollow">»</A> <A HREF="http://www.lilliputlcdcarmonitor.info/Manualevolkswagentype2.html" REL="nofollow">»</A>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19928946.post-1151245510386246052006-06-25T10:25:00.000-04:002006-06-25T10:25:00.000-04:00Is this my old friend from New Jersey? Perhaps the...Is this my old friend from New Jersey? Perhaps the one whose mother was assistant leader to my mom? I can't figure a way to e-mail you from your blogsite. But, you know who I am and you can e-mail me through www.picniccaterers.comAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19928946.post-1150983326670612542006-06-22T09:35:00.000-04:002006-06-22T09:35:00.000-04:00Hey friend,First off, thanks for the link to the G...Hey friend,<BR/>First off, thanks for the link to the Greenmount site. I have always loved to visit cemeteries, the older the better. This one is absolutely lovely. Thank you for pointing me toward some more pics!<BR/><BR/>I think if the world were the way God intended it to be, columbines would hold some kind of magical power. (I suspect the world has lost a great deal of its magic by now.) They look to me like a fairy had something to do with them, or would if it lived nearby. Columbines don't grow wild, as far as I know, in Michigan or in Illinois where I grew up. But ever since God healed my black thumb a few years ago (black as in Not Green; once I killed a cactus), they have been among my favorite things to try to grow. Did you know they don't flower their first year? Only after they die and rejuvenate do they flower. Last week I saw some violet ones with creamy centers. Maybe that offends you since your love of columbines is for those growing wild, and maybe the violet ones came about by human hand. But they were beautiful just the same.<BR/><BR/>I submit for your consideration:<BR/>It seems to me that when one of his children makes him a vow that is in alignment with his purpose for that individual, God sets them up optimally henceforth to keep their vow. Not that he makes it easy, of course.But in my life he has put things in place to help me remember & maintain such vows just at the times when I was trying hardest to ignored them.<BR/><BR/>I never made him a vow not to suicide. I just gave up trying because he made it clear he wasn't going to let it happen. But the end result is similar. We are both still here.<BR/><BR/>What if he is not going to let you forget your promise? What if suicide is simply no longer an option for you now that he's claimed you and elicited from you your promise to stick around until he's done with you?<BR/><BR/>After I figured out suicide was never going to work for me, I threw a tantrum that lasted years. I told God that if he wasn't going to let me duck out, he was getting the full force of all my rage at what he had already allowed in my life (various types of child abuse, some violent, others more subtly destructive) and whatever happened next. It was a liberating thing to then discover that God was bigger than all my pain in all its manifestations. It was also initially more excruciating to go through the darkest times and not be able to comfort myself by toying with suicidalism. (I figure you know what I mean.) Of course, I knew God was bigger than my pain, but I had not really been trusting him to be bigger when I was clinging to suicide as an option. When I gave up on that, I had nothing to cling to but him (and, as stated, my rage).<BR/><BR/>So...what if God has eliminated suicide from the Flask List of Options?<BR/><BR/>I rather suspect he has.<BR/>I hope he has.<BR/>I trust he has.<BR/><BR/>Just for the record, I am coming off a terribly dark week, but every day I kept the faith in praying for you. I am unsuitably proud of myself for this, since it was all his doing and not mine. But instead of ignoring his reminders to pray for you, I was a good friend to him and to you and prayed anyway.<BR/><BR/>Sometime if you feel like writing about it...I feel so confused about your treatment schedule. Clearly it is changing. I thought they were on Tuesdays and Fridays. But then not some Tuesdays, and now no Tuesdays? It doesn't really matter because he knows what you need whether I do or not. Thinking it through now, I guess it's my delusion that I can pray for you more effectively if I know what's going on for you from day to day. OK, I'm over that. Anyway, I'm glad the frequency is diminishing.<BR/><BR/>Is it not an accomplishment for you to continue to seek balance & stay healthily active when your Barbara and your Flyingfisher are unavailable? It seems to me to be a great thing when you are accustomed to more support than what's currently available. I'm proud of you.<BR/><BR/>My final thought for you today in this ridiculously long "comment" - I derived some comfort this past week from the first few verses of Romans 5 and their discussion of how hope develops during suffering. Not that we rejoice because we are suffering, but there is always a pathway to joy offered within and in spite of suffering. In previous readings I have felt angry with God for setting things up thus, but this time around I was able to take it as a promise.<BR/><BR/>grace & peace--<BR/>dAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com