oh, God. five minutes ago i felt fine but the downswing is coming.
it is coming and it is coming hard but you knew that already. i have been writing music, a lot of it; large, buoyant, joyous music with rich chords and i sing praise but i'm just to the last two or three measures and it seems like i just can't go any further and i think maybe i'll switch over to the Kyrie i've been working on but had put aside for a while.
no, i don't think i can. i think i may be in trouble. the tears are just rolling and rolling down my cheeks and i'm having to remember to breathe and please don't let the screaming start, not today, not ever again, please.